Still...

This is a song I recently wrote for a close friend. It explores the tear between loving someone and wanting nothing to do with them. It explores marriage in extremis and simultaneously wanting to seek restoration. This is complicated by the needs and emotions of children. 

You’ve looked past
Raised surrender’s mast
You got no clue. 
You’ve said too much
You’ve not said enough
And I’m through

I’m taking your forsaking
And I’m leaving you too

But I still love you
I still need you
I still want every broken thing we’ve ever had
But you just stand there
Like you don’t really care
That I’m saying one last time it’s all gone bad
But I still love you.

No, you look in their eyes
And you say your goodbyes
They’re nothing like you, nothing like you
‘Cause you can crush me
But you leave them be
We’ll go start somewhere new, somehow, somewhere new.

I’m breaking with this aching
So I’m leaving you too.

But I still love you
I still need you
I still want every broken thing we’ve ever had
But you just stand there
Like you don’t really care
That I’m saying one last time it’s all gone bad
But I still love you.

Running as fast as I can
Surely there’s another man
Or is it I’m afraid to hear
What’s coming near, way too clear.

He still loves you
He still needs you
He still wants every broken thing you’ve ever had.
But he’s afraid to stand there.
In case you don’t really care
That he’s saying he knows it’s all gone bad
But he still loves you. He still loves you.

We’ve said too much
We’ve not said enough
But we’re not through.

Elizabeth A. Davis. Copyright 2015